Tuesday, December 21, 2010 @ 11:52 PM
My number of sent messages just decreased again... From 6000+ a month to 1000+ a month. Wow. Damn zai huh? Yea, prouds. Hiaz... Its nothing to be happy about...
I mean there's nothing to be happy about. Yup, I've gotten my 3SG rank, I got into VTW as an instructor, an admin spec and SIL spec. Dreams come true for me this time although im not very happy about the admin job part, but owell, not the first time that SAF has played with me... Im really not happy at all... Thousand and one people are longing to get admin jobs and i manage to get it. Arent I lucky?
Friends are bombarding me with messages like "Long time no see, wanna meet up for christmas?", "You free on 24/25/26 December?". Well, glad that im made busy during the christmas period but I just feel very...erm...empty?
25 January 2011 is coming soon... It marks the 100th day of my...eh...emotional struggle. Somebody booked me on 25 December 2009, im happy. Many people booked me on 25 December 2010, im feeling empty. Oh, what a bias guy I am. I deserved to be stoned to death! Hey! I like to stone though. (That's kind of random...)
As you can see now, im suffering from some emotional struggle inside... Should I, or should I not? This or that? One or two? A or B? Yes or no? Hmm... Argh! Im exploding soon!
Boom!
GG-ed.
ITE.
RIP.
:)
Okay, im feeling a little saddistic now...
FML.